Enough

Matthew 6:25-34

My brain swirls with unfinished tasks, goals, things that I need to control RIGHT NOW, need to get ticked off my list, or surely, the sky will fall down upon me. If I don't put into motion every thought that runs through my head, it will be gone forever, a wave upon the sand.

All that worry for nothing! God is holding me here, today, and saying, "Let me guide you." My passion is writing about God and Jesus and Christian spirituality...so He will enable me to do that, one word at a time. Nothing fancy. Nothing flashy. I can write my truth today, and minister to those who might want to read it. But what if no one reads this? Then I've done the work I can for the day, and the rest is none of my business!

What else am I putting my sticky little fingers into today? My looks, for one thing. I'd better do my hair, apply my makeup, make sure I'm wearing one of my colorful outfits! What if people see my real face? What if they see my plain t-shirts and jeans and tennis shoes? What will they think? They'll think I'm boring! Or...homely! Oh, oh, oh. Hands wringing, glaring into the mirror, fussing with my bangs. Then I pause and send up a prayer: "God, help me stop doing this!"

I have been given radical gifts: the passion for writing, the fierce love of my daughter, the rock-solid love and respect of my family and friends and fiance. It is my perogative to live out every second in the glorification of Jesus, in celebration, in kindness, in service. Not only service to others, but to myself as well. How many hours of my life have I spent applying mascara? Dieting? Obsessing? What if I could teach my daughter to love herself to the very core of her authentic being?

Today I walk with God, I ask Him to have me live truly, authentically, in His honor and glory. And to never, ever, forget to have a good time!